It's been a few (crazy) days.
So, finally got to hang out with Kathleen on Tuesday, but we had a fight early in the day....mostly my fault, I over-reacted to her natural forgetfulness, and normally it wouldn't have been an issue, but with all the crap of the previous week, including her forgetting we were spending Saturday night together....it was kind of too much.
But, we came out it alright, and actually had a really great afternoon together, and more than that came out stronger for it. And i told her about some things that were minor irritants to me, but she was understanding, and has really been making more of an effort to keep in touch, and not drop off in the ways that bother me.
And we hung out this afternoon, and had a good time.....more and more i'm getting more relaxed and less fearful she's going to wake up one morning and decide she just doesn't like me.....though i suppose should that happen.....i'll be even more crushed.
I will say this, i do wish we were spending more time together...She works some long hours and i totally get that....but I'd like to see more of her, i really enjoy spending time with her.
Oh....and today is a sort-of anniversary.....
It was Oct 8 that we decided we were a couple, and also first kissed.....also a damn DAMN awesome day...it was also 4 weeks ago today...so to me that 'sort of' counts.
most who know me know i've been struggling for some time with what to *do*
do i work, do i go back to school? where do i work?
and i've been very VERY frustrated with my efforts in the job-hunting arena. And finally in order to make some short-term cash i decided to go back to Opinion Search. They're not hiring....
I've been thinking about re-enrolling in the Business program come January.....but i still really *really* want to work.
So, here's what i'm going to do.
in March i'll evaluate where i am, if i'm not happy i'll consider going back to school
Same deal in July...
for lack of a better place to write i'm back in LJ land for a bit....it won't last...
had my first D&D session last night with the new group...had a lot of fun...it's a good group and notably it's the first D&D game i've played in since my exile from Buffalo. I had a really group there, these folks are definitely up there.
as ever there is a wrinkle.
one of the factors that influenced my decision to play was my awareness of one of the other players in the group.
let me go back a bit, mid to late summer i randomly ran into Brian, the fellow who ended up running the game he was having a bit to deat with his ex-financee, and we ended up chatting for a bit, i found her throughly charming and just a little bit enchanting. Indeed i was trying to find an in-offensive way to ask Brian for a means to get a hold of her see if she'd like to hang out at some point. Then the opportunity to game with her came along and i decided to take it.
and indeed after spending several more hours with her gaming i'm even more......interested.
but there are, as always complications, though i'm not all that close with Brian....i'd consider him a close acquaintance at best it seems shabby to hit on his ex, and if i ask to hang out with her, might he not be offended as i've never asked him.
this is definetly a situation where caution is indicated, but i want to take a shot, she's really quite cute, and really quite something.
so, we'll see
Good night and good luck
p.s. i have more i want to write about but life is craziness and with Bloop beiing dead...i need to find a new place to write...
there was a time when April fools gags on the internets were actually pretty clever and funny...
it seems as though those days have passed....
really not much else to say...i need to start blogging again tho'
i'm watching Six feet under again,
i just felt like watching something different,
for those who haven't seen it, i'll give a way a spoiler, the father dies, in the first episode and it spends the rest of it's time dealing with the fallout,
it reminds me of my own Father's death, i guess in part because i was talking to Jasmin about it the other day.
i'm just so fucking pissed, so angry,
angry he's dead
angry because i don't even have anything of his to remember him by.
JUST SO FUCKING ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss him.
i haven't posted in weeks...i suck!
well i'll get back to it shortly jsut been so crazy-busy latlly
but life is good,
I love my City!!!
I posted ages ago...i suppose i can link it *roots around internets, to find linky*:
There we go...
well i want to add something, i'd like to meet someone free of drama.....
Gods be good, in the past few months i've had assocations with romantic over-tones, (dry and techincal i know, but it appeals to my sense of accuracy) with a few girls, and there's always some crap in the way.
i'm not blaming said females, or bitter or angry, just frustrated.....i'd just like tings to be a smidge simpler, and easier....just a smidge...
y'know what i'd freaking like..
how's this for fucking complicated......
i want to meet a girl, be interested in her, have her be interested in me and be Poly, or Poly-ok. Maybe we'll go out have some fun, goof off etc. etc. etc.
is that so FUCKING HARD????
sorry....mad now...will post substance later....